Because i loved her so much, its hard to say goodbye.
not knowing if she is alive or dead
hating myself cos these answers i will never know
but all of this i want to have just like before
pictures and memories are all i have now
yes I'm still confused, angry, lost and scarred
i know she is gone but i cant accept how
Ive lost her for good, she will never return
no one ever listened to what she meant to me
they always said she was just a dog nothing more
well she deserves to be here so we can be free
not with some stranger alone so far away
what did i do to her? what have i done wrong?
she deserves to be home with me safe and happy
she made me happy, made me myself and strong.
but i could never be those now, not without her.
i swore to her all my promises i would keep
i let her down so much and now i feel so bad
i should have tried harder cos now i cannot sleep
all the things i promised her flying past in my head
i cant get rid of that look on that unforgettable night
that look she gave me as i said i was sorry
that look stayed in my head as they drove her out of sight
that look will remain in my head for now and for ever
i actually thought my plans would work out
i actually had faith to believe in my dreams
so thinking now will i achieve them? i guess not.
she carried all those dreams with her when she left
so if one day when you open my bedroom door
you will know exactly my reasons for my actions
but now its too late to bring her back, I'm lying motionless on the floor
i did try to tell you what she means to me...now do you think she is just a dog????
saffie
13
28.11.04
miss my little star so much every day and its been a few years now. the pain never ever went away. xx
