I saw you today
Walking to class
Laughing with your friends
I wanted you to see me
Of course you wouldnt
Im no longer noticeable
How nice it is to be me.
I saw you at dinner
I saw her with you
I saw you laugh
I saw you smile
I had to leave.
I heard about you today
You were with her
You were holding hands
Kissing, smiling, laughing
I remember when I did that
I went home and cried.
I saw you in my dreams
You were lying next to me
Snuggled up close to me
You whispered you loved me
Tears of happiness were flowing
Then my alarm went off
I started to cry only wishing to die.
I saw in dreams
How life would be
Without a soul mate
Without your true love
Without you
I see how my heart breaks
Every time I see you
Every time I hear about you
Every time I think about you
I see the scars on my wrist
So invisible to everyone else
I see the pills in blood
So small no one can tell
I see the heartache
I wear a mask to cover it
I see the sadness in my eyes
So I wear make up
I saw you today
I dont think you saw me
Its impossible to see
The scars on my body
Or the pain in my heart
Or the depression that creeps
Slowly,
Slowly,
Slowly,
Until it'll take over
I wont hurt anymore
I wont feel anymore
I wont see you anymore
I just wont be me anymore.
