In The Mood For Suicide

I'm In the mood for suicide
How shall I die
Shall it be fast or slow
Or just as long as the pain goes
Should I drink some poison
Should I get a gun
Should I cut my self with a razor blade
Or just as long as I fade
No more meaning in my life
So here I am starting at a knife
Lost all faith and lost all hope
Just having trouble doing the rope
Whatever it takes I just wanna leave
But I don't want anyone to grieve
I lost the one I loved and another
I just no longer want to suffer
To make all this go away
I know I must no longer stay
I can feel a cool breeze upon my face
Feels like Gods loving grace
As I slip into this abyss
It feels like I'm in a state of bliss
But knowing my pain it will last a second
But I can hear the voice of angels beckon
Are they the ones I love
But when I open my eyes and look above
All I see is my blood
Like I been washed away by a flood
But here I lay forever in my torment
With a vile scent
To ones I love my pain as gone away
Or is it just for today
Now as my eyes slowly close
I can still feel the wind as it softly blows
My head tilts back
The visions of red now fade to black