Love; perfect in it's misery and joy. light warm, golden happiness shining through overwhelming the senses. heart a dichotomy of ready to explode and held so tightly together by the emotion coursing fiery through veins. feel like laughing, crying and screaming all at the same time. almost drug like effect between the caffeine and emotion. change is imminent but not all that bad. heartbeat races and slows at the same time. uncontrollable smiles break through. some notice and others don't but none understand. even if said others could manage to comprehend this feeling none could really come close to understanding or feeling it. so afraid to lose this, that its not real but instead a wonderful dream. afraid that you're going to wake up and end up leaving; realizing that it wasn't what you thought. you'll leave me to my tears as i still try to clutch blindly at all those pretty lies that you gave me to hold.
