Too Many memories

Too many memories
I promised to keep
And its haunts my soul
At night when I sleep

The guilt is horrible
And its building inside
Its building between the love
Of me and another guy

Between the laces of our hands
When we hold them tight
To the kissing and caressing
That happens at night

To everything that I said
Would never happen, did
Because now it is not you
Who I am in love with

I think about it everyday
And the feeling wont leave my heart
Its that one promise I made
For us to never part

There’s aches in my heart
When I think about the past
I reminisce of me and you
And how we thought it would last

So who do we blame?
For what has occurred
I want to tell you
But my mind is so blurred

I have been trying to spit it out
But the lump in my throat wont leave
I’m trying to talk to you
If only you could see