Not wanting to live but not wanting to die!

Not wanting to live,
but not wanting to die.
She cuts her wrists,
and tears fill her eyes.

The life she once knew,
is far away now.
She's screaming inside.
She wants to get out.

She watches the blood,
run onto her hand.
She's crying inside.
No one understands.

She doesn't want help.
She just wants to be free.
She looks in the mirror,
and thinks how can this be.

The tear stains on her pillows,
show all her pain.
The nights she spends crying,
Living in vein.

The scars on her wrists,
show how she feels inside.
All this pain she has,
and trys so hard to hide.

she wears fake smile,
to cover her frown.
she keeps her head,
but she wants to look down.

She wants to believe,
everything will work out.
She tries to convince herself,
but she still has much doubt.

She wants to know,
why everything changed.
Why life was once one way,
but then rearranged.

So not wanting to live,
but not wanting to die.
She cuts her wrist,
and tears fill her eyes.