I myself haven' get the right answer for it

I myself haven't get the correct answer for it
When I was in a relationship with this girl
She asked me hand my diary to her
I hand it blindly
Without thinking twice
She told me 2 hours later after I send her to her place
She told me to stop loving her when I was happily on my way to swimming complex
When I was at the swimming complex
She den told me that.
I told my friends that I was not in a mood to have some fun since something bad has happen to me.
When i was on my way home, my friend appeared in front of me. I was deeply touched over the words they said.
Because of my friends who have stood by my side.
They took my pain away
They are the one who make my faith grow stronger
And my past teachers me lessons to be more aware
That is how I felt when I was dump.
In fact, i didn't even make her cry once before.
Because of my diary,
Everything went wrong
I am crying right now while telling such a painful story to you
That was the worst pain I've suffered
But as I wrote in my diary, physical wounds mean nothing to me in a face of true determination
I'm strong and I got incredible inner strength
But everybody has its weakness somewhere
And mine is in the heart
i cant bear the pain myself.
i get emotional and hurt when people look down on me..
I'm also hurt because of my family who dont even trust their own son.
I've nobody to turn to when I'm down.
I'm weak towards the weak people who always get bullied
I'm always there to cheer them up
And i can be really strong towards the bullies among them
I'm always there to support the weak ones no matter what
When i was in my primary life
i was bullied.
i was hated by the teachers, by the students, by the principle
By my parents and siblings as well
i have nobody to turn to
i was alone.
Really alone
When i was bullied
i told my parents about it.
But there don't seems to care
i was once strip in the class before.
Now, i understand how painful it is to be alone
i know how painful it is to get bullied.
i even get beaten up by gangs.

My face was in deep shit
There were many swollen parts on my body
When i return back home
Its my father turn to beat me up
And the way he beat me
Is different
He beat me using his fist knowing that I was injured
In the end,
I'm still alone
i still have nobody to turn to.
But now, when i finally met friends who truly understand my feeling
Who I finally get to form a bond with
Who acknowledge me for the first time
I really thank god for giving me this change to taste the feeling of love, peace and joy
Whenever I'm down,
i keep it to myself.
But i will pour it all out to my best friend which is my diary
The one who i trusts the most.
One thing i like about my diary is that it has no emotion
It can't talk.
i just write it down and it wont complain.
Every drop of rain do little harm
i don't get it, why do people bully the weak one knowing they are stronger than them
Why they are not brave enough to bully the same size as them.
After my primary life,
When i was in sec 1,
Everyday
i will do at least 100-200 push ups
I'm going beyond my limit.
But i stay strong.
i didn't want to get bullied again.
i exercised every single day
But I'm still weak
When i was sec 1
i was bullied again
But my hard work didn't go to waste
i fight back.
And i won.
i was small back than. There were 3of them fighting me alone
When i was sec 2
People challenge me to fight
I insisted
But they didn't even care that I'm still sec 2
And the one who is fighting me is 18years old boy
In order to panelize him down
i need to fight

Surprisingly, i won.
i was shock too
now, I will smile even my closest friend betray me
And it happen before
A lot of time
Even this year
As u can see,
i kept smiling
Because that is how i live in order to make people don't hate me

-Mr ReD-