You watch tears form in your eyes and roll down your cheeks
You remember the times where you actually smiled and remember why you did.
You remember it was because of the one that stole your heart away,
The one who told you he loved you,
The one that told you what was going through his mind, the one that meant everything to you,
He was the one that also made you cry. Even though he made you cry even though you are hurting because of him, he still won you over; she still was the one that you fell in love with
He doesn't feel that way anymore, but the thing is you still do. You can't seem to move on and you don't want to, you want him to be with you
You sit there in class looking at him, thinking to yourself why u let him go, and thinking about how happy he made u.
You rite him a letter telling him how u are feeling, you tell him that u are still here if he needs you
You have made up your mind but so has he, you both want different things. He changed his mind from when he first fell in love with you. You can't do anything to make his old thought come back. No matter how hard you try you cannot change his mind anymore.
You just want to be with him
You can't stop yourself from crying anymore, you don't want to see him with another girl, you want to see him with you
You have done everything for him, and you still want to be apart of his life
You want to be the girl he holds and kisses, you want to be the girl that he sings to, you want to be the girl he tells he loves, you want to be girl that he buys things for on the odd occasion.
You want your old life back. You want to be that girl that smiles her most. The one that messes around with everyone, you want to be that girl who runs up to him and jumps on him, looks him in the eyes and tells him you misses him even after 1 hour of not seeing him. You want to be able to call him your own.
Even though you are trying not to, you still love him so much; you tell yourself that he isn't worth all the tears you're shedding over him. You tell yourself that he isn't worth loving so much if he was the one making you cry
You are forcing yourself to get over him and while your doing that your hurting yourself in the process, your making yourself cry even harder then you were originally. You hurt so much you eventually tell yourself off for stuffing everything up in life; you start to blame yourself and tell yourself nothing you do is ever right and that you should just give up.
You are telling him how you are feeling. You don't hide anything from him and as you do you are making him hate you even more, you're making the chances even slimmer of getting back with him.
You feel horrible and you are feeling like nothing or no-one else matters because all you want is him, you try to make those feelings go away but as each day goes by you fall more and more in love with him
And now you have dug yourself into a hole you cannot get out of until you work out a way to solve all your problems
You know what you want but you don't know if it's what you need.
You want to be happy, you want to be loved, you want to be able to call someone your own, and you just don't know if it's the right thing with him
He has hurt you so much and you're still so attached to him
You know no-one approves of how you are feeling, you know no-one knows or understand how much u love and care for him
You need to become stronger and become a girl that isn't getting hurt by what people are doing and saying about you
You are forcing yourself to forget him, your trying to get him out of your mind your telling yourself that he isn't worth it because no-one knows how much he hurt you. Someone that hurt you so much shouldn't be is the list of getting a second chance,
But you would do anything to have him in your arms
You know he won't take you back and you shouldn't take him back
You shouldn't keep waiting around for something that won't happen; you're waiting for someone that is lower then what you deserve.
He may have been the right person then but now look at you. Look at how you are feeling all because of one guy
He has changed so much and you can't cope anymore
You may love him, you may always will love him but no matter what the past is the past. You and him are over
