Desires shall wait

I remember every Halloween
i would dress transvestism
try to understand why boys always crush my heart to bleed,they are truly scandalous where i come from
decelerate my heart from beating
decelerate my ability of succeeding
always feel deceived from fake love
"no true love" is what i believe only lust is what i see
my hearts aches for that happiness
advantage they take
while I'm feel with sadness
trying to find love is what i hate
believing everything they say to show them I'm faithful
just putting myself at sake to be abandon in a hole
crying out for help
but none just left for my heart to melt
seeking for the love i never had.searching for a true knight.so my heart he can catch but still i struggle to fight.romance fantasies are my desire
believing these fantasy leads my heart to fire
so i finally decided to wait
for my true love to find me my heart wont feel any earthquakes,but love and destiny