It has me staying up late every day
It has my mind racing with endless thoughts
Watching as my demons linger in every corner
Hiding, waiting, debating my fate
Teasing me with the pains of my deepest despair
I've fought them so long now, that I gave in
No longer wasting my breath or my strength
On a force that is now to strong
I just don't care anymore what happens to me
I'm fading, I'm numbing inside, and I'm closing up
It's another day, a reminder that tomorrow will be the same
Drinking seemed so much fun, now it's a need
My addiction was fun, now I gave that up or so I attempted too
But today I had slipped, I finely said F it
Tomorrow might be a clean day, I won't know
Nor will you
I hear you talking about money, and I grow more hate inside
More rage then ever, I wish you'd see I'm the one in need
But your so self centered as the world can be
I really hope someday I die before I'm 25
Seeing that my life is a waste, No future ahead, just empty days where I lay in bed crying inside as well as dieing inside
So I just bare with it all, drink till I'm gone and stumbling
Kill my muscles and orgins with more pills to consume
19 years old but inside I fell 30
I wish of hopes that will never ever come
and it saddens me to know I'm drowning in my depression and it's winning again. . . . . . .
