Lost

I'm so lost I don't know
If I'm even breathing
Why is that
You constantly think I'm leaving

I told you once
So I will say it again
I love you, I mean it now
And you know I meant it then

I'm just thinking
About my not-so-simple life
That's why I'm so quiet
That's the reason for the knife

I did a lot of bad things
But i didn't know the cost
I don't know where I am or what to do
I am simply just... lost