May 26th

In twenty years
my world has turned cold
and the light of my life
has all but gone out

September 27th

Today is my birthday
My parents seem to have forgotten
how is it the people you love
can forget you so easily?

Today hasn't been fun
I got picked on about how I look
and my best friend came to school
with ten brand new cuts

When will it stop?

October 13th

How strange it is
that time can pass so slowly,
and still, nothing changes
the dead decay faster than things get better

My father told me today
that he's going to leave my mom
he said she was crazy
so why is he leaving me alone with her?

When will it stop?

November 19th

It's my moms birthday
and all she can do is cry
my dad told her he was leaving today
I didn't leave my room

Adam, my best guy friend
told me he loved me
but I couldn't bring myself to be happy
all he knew of me was a lie.

When will it stop?

December 8th

My best friend died today
she killed herself
slit her wrists, didn't even leave a note
I found her on my bathroom floor

It's kind of funny how I'm staying so calm
all my mom does is yell
Adam won't talk to me
my dad moved to Colorado

When will it stop?

May 26th

Today was my best friends birthday
she would've been 17
It's hard to think about her
but my thoughts won't leave it alone

Some of them are telling me
that today's the day I die
I don't know what to do
but the blood on the bathroom floor never came out

When will it stop?

May 26 11:30 p.m.

Today /is/ the day
I can't live inside myself anymore
I miss everyone so much
I think I'll go for a walk

Earlier today, my dad called
we got in a fight
he said everything that's happened is my fault
he said she killed herself because of me

When will it stop?

May 26 11:59 p.m.

Well, there's no time left
My father and mother are right
I am worthless
Right now is the time

Perfect-there's an 18 wheeler coming
saying a last goodbye
I'm sorry Cam, I'm sorry
I'll be with you soon

When will it stop?

In twenty years
my world has turned cold
and the light of my life
has gone out