Shadow of my past

I'll take the blame this time
i know i pushed you away
my shame of the past came
back so fast,i couldn't even
stop to think what i was doing.

you loved me with your heart,but now
I've torn it all apart.It wasn't you
i swear on my grave it was the
one before.He broke my spirit and burned
my soul.If you were so different i swear i
didn't know.I know it wont be the same
and i know I'm the one you blame.

I wish i wasn't this way,its so sad that what he
did to me I'm the one who has to pay.
id beg you back just last time,But i want
you to be happy so ill set you free.Its not
fair that we cant be.I try to make the past
fade away,yet day by day it comes back
so haunting every time.

I want you so bad just to fix what i have
done.its so sad just to know what i have
become.Day by day i carry the shame of
knowing Ive ruined my life and yes I'm
the one to blame.I thought he only hurt my past
but it turns out because of him my futures been
destroyed.