I dont wanna be this anymore...

I don't wanna be
another lost heart
i wasn't always broken
but where did it start

all the years of hurt
I'm good for being abused
going home alone
all battered and bruised

its not like it matters
if you lie to my face
i wont stand up for myself
just put me back in my place

a cold and lonely existence
something just isn't right
i don't think its natural
to live life in fright

don't wanna get to close
or let down my guard
letting people know how i feel
shouldn't really be this hard

to scared to be judged
so i try not to cry
or let them know
that i just want to die

i don't want to be
that girl anymore
cause i know if it goes on
my body will fall to the floor

I'll try again
and hope for the best
cause everything in this life
is mealy a test

so I'll go on being strong
holding my head high
waiting till I'm alone
before i can go ahead and cry

watch me smile
and pretend that I'm well
I'd give you an hour
you'd die living my hell

i don't want to be
so broken inside
I'm changing this life
before i fall off the ride

comment please..wanna know what you think....