My Soothing Soulmate

The pain I feel,
It's fust unreal,
to take the scars
and throw them behind.

I see the photo's
and start and cry.
for I am not
Who I used to be.

My friends are gone,
I pushed them away
I no longer see them
day by day

I no longer see life
its in a haze
a dazzling maze
to weave through

I walk and walk
walk and walk
Tune out the world
tune out the noise

My iPod's blaring
the kids are staring
I no longer care
for I am not here

I go home to these empty walls
I have fallen
into depression
with no one to help

No one to listen
No one to hear
I'm all alone
No one is here

No one but you
Your touch feels smooth
against my skin
deep within

I love your feel
for I feel real
so real with you
I swear

everything leaves
and P heave a sigh
I say goodbye
to demons

relief indescribable
for I am liable
to take you deeper
explore my soul

you are my blade
you persuade
my black blood
to crimson

head is spinning
blood is thinning
eyes are shutting
blade falls down

peace for moments
that is all
pinching pain
what to gain?

momentary peace?
worth it all?
just a release
nothing else.

life is cruel,
so are you
you bring me down
so far down

i can be more
i don't need you
never ever again
i promise

"where am ,
its cold in here.
So cold and dark"
your in the trash

forgotten

Scars soon heal
iPod shut away
No one needs music
you have friends today

laughs and giggles
daily way
attempt to smile
bring life back.