YOU!whyI now hate YOU.

Today i stared at a picture of you
i don't understand
why i still ask my self
did i ever have to say i liked you
now you almost find ME!
revolting,disgusting,vile
i wish i could go back
to when we were 13
when i used to pretend
that you were just another icky boy
now i can't it's like you are an ocean
engulfing me
judging my every move
you love to hate me
you love to like my best friend!
l have now stared at your face going on 2 hours
for the first i can understand the hate and i can not do any thing but
cry,it's a lot better than hurting myself
i will never get over how your eyes are such a pretty blue
and i think some times green
i some times like to think that
if you had brown eyes
i so wouldn't like you
last year i would have never tried
to understand you
now it's like I'm being punished
for a crime of the heart

thank you some much for taking the time to understand me