To Lose Control

To hear is not to understand
To watch is not to see
To talk is not to make sense of
To touch is not to feel
And to feel is to underestimate yourself.
Something i do every second of the day.
There's billions of people in the world.
But somehow you only need one
To make you feel unhappy and unstable
To make you feel like you don't matter
To basically make you feel like shit.
It's not so much that I chose this.
You did without even the slightest recognition
But knowing that I was always the easy kill...
There's no one to blame but myself
Although it's so much easier blaming everyone else.
So here i stand in the middle of nowhere
Crossing over to insanity
When you don't even understand me
But somehow make every decision for me.
But you never would have thought
That you were the reason for all my pain.