A Broken Mind (Collab with Kelly)

Fallen into the pits of my mind's hell,
Irritated by the shine of your smiling teeth,
I hate who you've become in my mind's eye,
Because it is that which I yearn to be again.

Trapped within my conscious self. No way out.
Even escape is a pessimistic conception.
I do not value this life I am perceiving,
I choose to end it or to just simply be.

A mother's tears staunch my self-loathing,
Guilt, an addition to my plethora of frantic thoughts.
Do not burden your contented, vibrant soul,
With these addictive, tormented seas between my eyes.

You cannot prevent my demise, my friend,
I am a victim of my own deadly disposition.
I see my weaknesses, amounting my tortures.
Do not empathise.... for I perceive your pity.

I live in this isolation, afar from reality.
Angry, hateful, bitter, I have lost my identity.
A murderous father stares into the eyes of bliss,
Whilst I, socially abnormal, yearn for suicidal salvation.

© Natalie M. Sarantos (collab with Kelly Robles) 12.04.08...4.34pm