I wonder if this is goodbye

It's funny how aloneness
can come rushing quickly in
it's funny how peace and joy
can end before they begin

Or is it sad that it is true
how quickly we lose a friend
does it matter that we never matter
that beginnings mean another end?

I wonder if this is goodbye
or just another way to say hello
another painful 2 AM
perhaps tomorrow we'll know

I'm curious if you care
that I'm once again breaking inside
callous and cold you were
is that the way you hide?

Paint these boxes red and grey
and put the pieces there
I wonder if in the morning you'll be back
and I still wonder if you care

So if this is goodbye
I'm sorry I made it so hard
I just don't know how to react
when my heart breaks into smaller shards...