Painful

I closed my eyes to lock away,
The hurt that raged inside,
The bitter anguish of the dream,
I lost because I lied.

Truth was not a friend of mine,
For secrets, she can't keep,
There were things I couldn't share,
The ache just ran too deep.

You didn't know the darker side,
I harbored all along,
That little corner of my mind,
That couldn't right the wrong.

I let it eat the world away,
Didn't care to look,
Until one day I came to see,
It was you it took.

A painful end that had to come,
So I could finally see,
I didn't love myself enough,
For us to ever be.

A train wreck from the very start,
That led me here today,
Letting go of everything,
That holds my heart at bay.

A journey deep inside my soul,
To find a sense of peace,
Demons burned inside the flames,
Of heavens sweet release.