Diaries of a Broken Heart

Yes it is happening again what you used to call mood wings
And yes it is that hour of the day where I sit alone and sulk in this pain
Listening to all those heart broken songs
hoping to find a console
But all I get is a little more heartache and a tear running down my cheek
I have a million thought crossing my mind
and none of them does not include you
I have a thousand questions and they all start with What If
What If your still here?
What If I didn't give up?
What If you didn't let go?
Would we have made it through today?
Would my heart ever be enough to fit in yours?
I'm living in a world of dreams of what it should have been
I'm holding your hand and your holding on to me
Lying so still knowing that this is where we belong
I loved the way you made me feel
how you took my breath away and stilled my heart with your beat
I miss all the things you used to say and your little smiles that linger in my heart
I long to hear your voice for its starting to fade
and I'm afraid to lose that only thing that is left for me to hold, Memories
Fill my empty space
turn my grief to grace
You're my drug
and I'm hopelessly addicted
Bring the past to present
even for just a second
Help me through the day
through every minute of every day
I'm stuck in the middle
fearing to let go and wanting to move on
not knowing where I should go
I feel like I've lost my way
And I know that is an extreme but how come that after all this time I'm still not able to fill this void you left in my heart?
I'm incomplete in all the senses and means
and I never thought I'd be this weak
But I have lost all my strength or maybe just the part that kept me strong
You once believed in me
You trusted me
and You claimed to love me
But you were never brave enough to say goodbye
You left me hanging for a hope that didn't exist
Waiting for you to come back knowing that you never will
You caused this pain and only you can take it away
You left
And my soul went away with you
And am still waiting here waiting for it to come back so I could be alive ..again .