Crumbs of Life.

It seems like an eternity
or maybe its more
working like this, like a clock
my hands, numb and sore.
I see them smile,I work to to make them smile
Yet my emotions, are what I slaughter everyday.

I dare to think, dare to dream,
Painting false hopes, shattered ambitions
on the decaying canvas of my life
which one may never see as
anything more than a tattered rag

I am merely human,
flesh and bones, nothing more.
emotions, I pawned for my existence,
in exchange for the leftovers
thrown away by people,
who achieve, who smile.

crawling in my dark corner,
shadows dancing around this candle
the ever dying candle of my life
I am too fearful to lose these crumbs,
these decaying crumbs,
the soul to my existence

Bitter as they may taste,
sick as I may feel,
the warmth tingling through my body
Throwing up, what flesh and blood I have left
This disease, hate, building up inside me.
Destined to rot away in the dark cell of life,
I am merely human, after all.