How I see myself

I see myself
The reflection in the mirror
Sallow skin, haunted eyes
Too ugly for anyone to love
I remember the day it started
That horrible day in 8th grade
I thought I had outgrown it
I thought wrong
Years later, I am still trapped
Caught in a whirlwind of addiction
It was not always this way
But all this pain to ease the numbness
Has not helped at all
All this pain to ease the numbness
It led to nowhere at all