You wanna crawl in a ball and hope to die
you wanna hate this boy
you wanna scream at this boy
but you love this boy
you need this boy
this boy hates you
this boy has screamed at you
this boy could die without you
and your wondering how can something so harmless
hurt like hell
how can this boy walk and smile when you cant even look people in the eyes
how can this boy carry on a conversation
when you cant even say two sentences with out saying his name....
he can go days without thinking about you
you cant even go nights
you stay up late on your knees crying praying to God
to let you sleep just this once and to get him off your head
[he is sound asleep while this is going on ]
he can look at you and smile
but he choses not to
and here you are trying your best to force a smile at him
so that he know your still here waiting
this boy cant go days without food
you would starve just to have him look you in the eyes once more
i feel like dieing
i feel like life's not worth it
but then i look at you and its amazing to me how someone who i want to forget who caused me this way
is the reason I'm still breathing
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Thank you for reading this
i did not make it up i pure felt it
if you feel this way message me comment it any way just let me know I'm not the only one out there wishing i didn't have to stare at the back of his head
wishing he would turn around and look at me
PLEASE
