STR8 from the mind

Time wasting flying by fast
tick tock tick tock
how long will my dumb life last?
I hate living in this world
in existence i don't wanna be
don't talk to me!!
don't tell me what to do!
stay away from me I want nothing to do with u!
I hate u almost as much as I hate my life!
whats so special about this world?
my mind begins to spin, whirl, and twirl
Seventeen years of not being able to trust
I cant tell the difference between love and lust
I close my eyes and count down from 10
....3,2,1 my life is put to an end.