Loosing ur self.......:(

Fading yes I'm falling into forever,
i cant seem to keep myself together,
cant hold on much longer I'm beganing to slip,
i wish that i could go back in time a get a better grip.
I'm loosing control spinning way to fast,
wondering if this life of mine is going to last.
walking down this wrong path one step at a time,
god help me please... send me a sign.
i want to change but i have been like this for a while now,
i really want to change the way i am but i dont no how.
every time i try things just go bad,
I'm a disappointment to everyone mostly my dad,
i have lied cheated and stole for the people that i love,
I'm sick of being down in the dirt.. i want to live above,
i am like this because i made one wrong decision,
now I'm stuck with it and its never going to leave my vision.