Obvious suicide, hidden depression.

Depression isn't obvious but suicide is
I'm sitting here with just my thoughts for company
the thoughts of me and you
I no that were over but if only i could just pretend
but when the thoughts of you are gone
the thoughts of suicide take over
because of you i have this sadness
its like I'm in auto pilot
i no longer no what I'm doing
i just drift by day to day
making my way around
suicide seems my only fate
its your fault now my sorrows turned to anger and hate!!!
i wish i could just run and hide,
from my thoughts of suicide
i ran and i hid
but they never left me alone.
I get up everyday doing nothing in particular
achieving nothing at all
its the same thing everyday
i have no purpose here
no one to miss me because u went and left,
well I'm leaving too,
just in a different sense
How could my depression not be obvious
i already tried committing suicide once
that day in class i over dosed
got sent to the hospital
i even had a psychiatrist
u put it all down to me being lazy
and not wanting to do class
mum i no u care
but it was just never enough
u cared u just never looked
u cared u were just never there
but thats OK,
because when this final letters done
i wont be here either
my depression may never have been obvious
but my suicide is
xxx