Trapped

I feel like a rat trapped in a cage
one that cannot be beat
have i come to the end
should i admit defeat.

i am twisting and turning
got so many thoughts in my head
i chose the wrong path
and it led me to stress.

should i go and seek help
for the things that i feel
or should i hide and away and pray its not all real.

i have so much to hide, but alot to say
i have done what have done and it wont go away
i will look to the future to get back what i had
and in the end hope not to feel this sad.

I lie awake just so scared to say
that am lonely and am hurting
as i feel the blade cutting away.

Am bleeding and am ill
the hurt just wont die
i know there will be a time
when i cant go on,

so i will lie there and die alone.