Dad

This poem is to my step dad

Dear dad are you out there?
I wonder where you are
And if you care
I know i lost you
And probably won't see you again
But why dad
Did you let it end?
I'm sorry i wasn't perfect
And i messed up sometimes
But can't you forgive me?
And come back to my arms?
You let us leave thinking you would see us again
But see dad see
My heart can't unbend
Mom's tried
To move on and on
But dad please
I'm still not that strong
I can't call some other man
By your name only
I can't call him dad
I can't i just can't
It's not humanly possible
To get over what you did
But dad I've tried
And i just can't win
I miss you dad
Please come back home
Why did you leave me
Cold and alone
I know you didn't mean it
And wish you could have changed
But that doesn't change anything
How you simply went away
Dad I really really want to see you
I can't put it any other way
But i blame myself
For you not wanting to stay