When I lay in bed alone at night I think about how much I wish you were there. I wish you were laying right next to me so I can feel safe, safer then I have ever felt before. And when I wake up in the middle of the night and I turn over and I see you there sleeping I don't think I could ever be happier. Since I am here alone I think about things like the first day we met. I think about all the hard things we went through together as one. I believe even though we were apart we were still one. We were still each the best thing that has ever happen to each other. That day when you hugged me and said goodbye. I thought I had lost the greatest person in my life. For a while I had fallen into a deep hole that I thought I would have never got out of. But baby I was right you were and are the greatest person in my life because you understand. You see right through me like it's easy. You take away all the labels people have put on me. You see me. You saw and see someone that I didn't know was there. I didn't know I could be the person I am now today. I didn't think I could have ever stopped the drugs or stopped smoking. But then I thought about it and realize I couldn't loose you again. I knew if I had not stopped smoking and got caught and expelled then I would probely not be able to see you. I know you are the greatest person in my life. I know your my hero. I know you have saved me from something that could have gotten much worse. You saved the someone that I didn't see. You saved the person in me. I can't thank you enough for everything you have done for me. I never thought I would find someone that actually loved me. Someone that actually would care for me. Baby now that I found you it seems I don't want to find another. I don't know if that scares you or makes you happy but I know it's true. The things I tell you in my writing are all true. Every word I write or type is complete honesty. Baby I just want you to know that I love you with all my heart and soul and will be there for you anytime you need me I will be right there by your side. Baby I love you.
