Being in love with your best friend

Have you ever loved your best friend so much that you thought it would destroy you? i have, we have been friends for 3 1/2 years and still he gives me butterflies when he gets that look in his eyes, he See's me in a way no one does.i have loved him from the start. but i was scared to love him i put my emotions in a box deep inside my self. he knows me like no one else, i start to speak and he finishes my thoughts. he has told me he loves me unconditionally.from that moment i knew i loved him as much as he loved me. i cry my self asleep knowing I'm still waiting for him to let me love him and yet he knows I'm the one he loves more deeply than anyone.i have told him that i love him and there's nothing he or anyone that can stop me from loving him. i need him with me i love the fact that i can look at him and and know how he feels about me weather he is with me or he's not in my presence. his eyes let me see him in a way that i don't think anyone does, i see love fear, hope,desire and guilt of his past. i can feel him with me when I'm alone. i can feel complete when I'm with him or not in his arms. i have waited three years for me to be his and i can wait 3 more. i have been his and have not been and the only thing that makes since is me being with his. i can only imagine myself making love to him and only him. i hope he finds me when the craziness's out of our lives. he complete me intellectually,physically,emotionally,in every way. ill be his best friend his lover your everything..i wish he would just tell me what he needs if thats being his best friend or his lover..or both(for the past three years). if he doesn't want to be with me I'm OK with that..well i will grow to love someone else if thats what i need to do. but i hope remembers i will always be here for him. best friend my love my friend for life....
love always