Got your letter today
So anxious to open it up...
I thought maybe it'd play out my way,
but nothing ever really does...
You've been away for too long
And feelings, you claim, have changed...
Everything suddenly felt wrong,
Emotions had to be rearranged...
I had my hopes up so much,
You said you were coming back to me!
Your voice, your laugh, your touch...
Oh god, the noise of silence is deafening...
I blame every single thing on me,
I stayed late at work one night...
You hung out with the wrong crowd till I was free,
And then you overdosed after a fight...
I think it's my fault that you've gone away,
I've cried, I've cut, I've drank...
I have so much that I still need to say...
But now my mind is just blank...
After learning of my fragile past,
You stepped up and stole my heart...
Happiness grew so fast,
But now that's blown completely apart!
It hurts so damn much,
To know that you're not coming back to me...
I believed in us, if there was a such...
You honestly did make me feel happy...
And whatever, you can go your way,
I'll be going down my own road...
No maybe things are not 100% OK,
And I'm numb to the everlasting cold...
Good things rarely happen to me,
and I'm use to the heart-wrenching fact...
And I guess my hopes were too high to be
And all that was white has faded to black...
I'll miss you, more than I can say...
But that's the choice you made,
Alone, again, both of us will lay,
And I just may reflect back on the blade...
But I'm still proud of you,
For the soberness that you've made...
I still will hope for you to pull through,
And for the thought of you to finally fade...
