The Seven Month Lie.

The Seven Month Lie. By: Paula .C.

You lied for Five months; only allowing me a brief glimpse of what was actually happening. Yet I always thought I would overreact, a few looks that's what they were suppose to be...but it was more...Its your obsession.
You looked everyday, sometimes more than once in the 75 minute period, for 5 months..56% of our relationship, and lied.
I forgave you, despite how much it hurt...
56% Thats more than half of our relationship.
I gave you a second chance hoping, praying for the best.
Perhaps you would see how much lying to me hurt.
Maybe you wouldn't make the mistake again.
It was hard to trust, not to second guess your promises, But I did! Because I love you , and I knew it was my fault. If it hadn't hurt me so bad, if I wasn't so insecure you could have looked all you wanted and not lied.
I was the cause of this splitting pain!
Two months passed, I felt good about myself, I was happy soaking up as much happiness as I could, pushing away everything else, hoping to obtain as much as I could before I fell to the look hanging in the balance of spring.
Spring, I dreaded it, knowing you wouldn't be able to resist, what I didn't know was you couldn't resist now.
I thought you had! I was so proud of you!
But I see once more it was all a lie, second semester wasn't our new beginning , Geography wasn't our time. It will never end, shes perfect to you, and I'm not! I'm no were near pleasing you!
I should consider myself lucky to even be with you.
And thats why all I ask is; Please don't lie again, don't allow the 70% to grow more.
For already I am constricted by your lies, and afraid that I might welcome death if it silences my heart wrenching cries...

08/03/20
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Either the last or second last in this series, only time can tell. Please comment and vote. And thanks for taking the time...

--Elly.