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Give me life, wake me up. I'm so handicapped from hate, I need you now even though somewhere I keep telling myself I don't want to.
Show me how bright the stars want to be, give me reason to hold on.
What's wrong with everything? Or is the question.....
What's wrong with me?
My story began with you.

Hold me to your chest and cover my eyes.
Show everything out of it's sickening disguise.
Tell me how to love God's creation like I did before.
Let me go to drop to the floor.
I'm not handling things well....

I'm losing my hold of happiness, surely,
maybe it's fleeting away like I've watched the seagulls on the ferry.
Hungry Knowing Learning
Where did I go? What's happening?
I think I've lost my dreams.....
I don't know anything anymore.

My words are just confusing, like the thoughts in my head.
Scattered,hugless,quiet with a lonely intensity.