Why Can't I Just Be Enough For You?

I loved you so much then.
I gave my life,
I gave my soul,
I gave my all.
And left nothing of me.

But it's still wasn't enough for you.
You just had to leave.
You couldn't offer your life to me.
You couldn' let me in your soul.
You just couldn't give your all.

I risked to lose everything I had,
I gambled my life just to be with you.
I made time stop everytime I was in your arms.
I turned my back on everything I have.
I even offered my future to misery just to be with you.

When you left me,
You didn't even say a word.
The wind passed and you were gone.
You left me hanging,
Wondering what else could you have wanted of me.

You felt that I wasn't enough for you.
You didn't think I was worth risking what you had.
You couldn't gamble your life to be with me.
You couldn't stop time to have me in your arms.
You're too scared to face the future with misery to be with me.

I cried oceans every night.
I spent years mourning your loss.
I lost myself and my sanity.
I dated every man to forget about you,
But no one could measure up.

You went on walking away from me,
You never looked back.
You lived your life in happiness,
You pretended that I never even existed.
You just left me dying.

I died the night you left.
I lived my life like a living dead.
I gave up on living, on loving,
I didn't care that my life was a mess.
I just never stopped crying every night.

A man came and changed it all.
He gave his life to me
He gave even his soul
He gave me his all
And left nothing and all for me.

He loves me the way I loved you.
He gambled his life to be with me.
He made time stop everytime I was in his arms.
He asked me to spend the rest of my life with him,
And I said....."Yes".

He is no one like you,
Not like you at all.
But I'm ready for a new beginning.
It's about time I settle down,
And start living the rest of my life with him.

How dare you suddenly come back like this!
How dare you ask me how I am!
How dare you come flattering me,
With all that you had with me!
After leaving me without saying a word?!?

Everything went back to my memory,
Everything I felt then was just hiding deep inside of me,
Everything I felt was stronger than before.
Every pain hurt me more than it ever did,
Every word pierced through my heart like never before.

I know you don't want me back in your life,
I know you still can't give me your all,
I know you still can't love me the way I do,
I know you love me but just not enough to give up your life for.
Why did you have to come back to say all this?

Now I'm at a loss again,
I still love you but I can't have you.
Do I really love this man I'm about to marry?
Or am I just trying too hard to forget about you?
Will I ever forget about you?

I am happy to know that you still care,
To know that I can still have that friend I had in you.
I want to keep it this way,
Helps me keep my sanity through all this.
I just wish you would let me.

I know you want me to move on,
I know you don't want me waiting for you,
Because you know I having nothing to be waiting for.
I just wish you'd let me keep our friendship,
And just never leave again.

Just please never leave again...