Wish i wasn't feeling this way...

I hate feeling this way.
but i've tried to change it
and nothing i do works
so i'm stuck feeling like
nothing i do will be good enough
and it sucks because
i really did love you
and it wasn't good enough

it's been months now
and i'm still not over you
but it doesn't even matter
because this is what you wanted
and i'm glad you're happy
even though i'm miserable

and i'm trying to start over
but it's hard to really care
when my heart is still crushed
and i still feel so lost

so now i put on my headphones
and listen to some sad songs
that explain exactly how i feel
and hope that everything fades away