Alone

My heart is racing
my palms are sweaty
i fall to the floor
tears streak burning paths down my cheeks
anguished sobs burst forth from my mouth,
i muffle the sound with my cold shaking hands
the ground is freezing beneath my tightly curled body
but i wont move.
y bother?
time passes...
slowly my heart begins to cease its frantic painful beating and i lie there tears all spent
face red and blotchy
i sniffle and sit up
stiff and sore from the hard surface beneath me
i take a deep breath stand up
redo my makeup fix my hair, straighten my clothes
smile weakly at my reflection
then square my shoulders to face another day
but then ill be alone in my room and itll all start again..
no 1 will notice that my heart is torn,
no one will notice that my mind is screaming,
no one will notice the scars on my soul

but thats okay.......

i forgive u