Broken Hearts and This Needle

There's this numb feeling that I can't get rid of....
I can't figure out if it's tied to hate or love...
Regardless of how this will turn out I need you to know....
This will never be the end, it will go on forever, our show...

I took a permanent marker and scratched out your face in all our pictures...
You are the past and I swear I won't let you screw up my future...
I've kept them for to long....
Even after I swore I had moved on...

It's so easier to full others.....But it impossible for me to fool myself...
After all those long lies, the times you said you needed me and no one else..
How did I believe everything you told me...
Why was I to blind, or naive to see...

My friend who was so desperate to break us up...you said he was just jealous..
But what about all the times he was there for me when I said it was over, us...
He held me threw every single night and it was just the other day He told me why...
He said that every tear I had cried made a hole in his heart, he said please don't cry...

I asked him what he meant and he said...
The thoughts of loving me where permanently in his head...
He said that every awkward silence and every time he would fiddle..
Was his heart breaking and him stitching it up with a needle.....