Why??

Why do i still love the way you smell
why does my heart still ache...
even though you cant tell
why can i lie in his arms at night
and still only think of you
why do i not want any of these feelings
but they stay and they stay
even though i have someone new
hes amazing and loving its true
so why are you still in my head
day by day
pushing my heart up from its comfortable bed
why why why do i want you even though
i need him
maybe everyone would be better off if i was dead