This Rose

Sitting here drowning in all my own pain
While at the same time I swear Im sain
Trying to live like its all okay
Knowing its all just a lie at the end of the day
So tell me why I fake this smile, tell me why I care
I thought I cared but you left me and my heart bare
I thought I could forget you and at the end of the day move on
And yet I find it impossible to believe your gone
How long can I pretend that I hate you??
How can I even guess at what I should do
Im hurt and its beyond a break
You didnt even think of the hope that you would take
As these tears fall and I beg for mercy
I am blinded by what I could never see
And as this rose slowly withers away into dust
I will forget you, but only because I must