I cant go on in this life

The sidewalk was stained,

Stained blood red

Thoughts of impending doom

Filled my head.

The life that was taken,

It wasn't by chance.

It was cruelly stolen

And life ended its dance.

Ive wanted to die

For around two years.

Now seeing this sight

Brought back the tears.

The tears from the pain

Of the cloak I wear,

Of the darkness it holds

I can no longer bear.

When looking down

At the sight below,

I began to remember

When my emotions ran low.

I remembered the day

When I picked up the knife,

The day when all I wanted

Was to end my life.

Well, my life didn't end,

Not on that day,

Although I still may end it,

At least in some way.

I cant wait

For this life to be through.

Its too big of a bite

I can no longer chew.

Its too heavy a cloak

I can no longer wear.

Too heavy a burden

I can no longer bear.

My life will not end,

Not soon I'm afraid.

I just wish

My debt of life was already paid.