Steel in my back

I feel cold
As I lie on ice cold steel
My heart feels old
The pain so very real

In my back
The blades hurting again
Oh what I lack
The very desire of men

I feel dead
Bleeding more each day
In my head
Warmth has gone away

In my heart
Ice forms like weaponry
Torn apart
I don't feel like me

My skin wet
My insides leaking out
Once again misled
What is love about?