Should I

I look at me
and hate the girl i see
i dont deserve this pain
i should be blissfully sane

if i could end all of it
jump into the blackest pit
just quietly say goodbye
i look at myself "should I"

im a burden to my friends
with the misery i send
theyre better off without me
i can cleary now see

what about my family
at my funeral sipping tea
i can see it in my head right now
o my god i am such a cow

i could never put them through all that
so i move silently to the blood red mat
close my tearful big blue eyes
to think of more clever lies

to cover up my lack of words
Ill go hang out with the silent nerd
ill get teased but who gives a S***
the path before me is already lit

**thankyou i dont like this one very much but i thought id put it up anyway***please vote and comment :)*