December gloom

Miss December and cold winter days
When I felt like sinking I had the blade
It was my only way out
And the evidence was so easy to hide
When it got hard, I let the metal take a bite
The flesh fell
And the blood stained
Now I'll never be the same
It's so close, but I feel fine
It's sweet kisses in each line
I haven't had enough yet
I tried to stop but the feelings not gone
And these stains are here for an eternity
They'll never go away