I look at my life and I look at the way I lived my life and I am so distraught.
I fight and I fight but their just nothing left of me inside to give anymore.
I question who I was, what I stood for, or what convictions I held strong to.
I would say goodbye to all the people who have hurt me and to the people i love, If God would just let me see the ocean once, to see the waves crash against the shore, to find those little shells and make a necklace. If I could stand in the water and feel free for just one moment.
I once said along time ago that I thought the stars above us were the souls of good people watching over us at night, but there are just so many people and few little stars.
I feel that the world and the people in it never gave me a chance, never let me grow the way i was supposed to, whether it was the harassment in school or fear of going home, they just never let me be. These words are coming strait from my soul, no creativity at work, just my raw feelings stinging me as i speak them.
I would say goodbye if God would just forgive me for the sin, but i don't think he would.
So I just sit here in my confusion, maybe I'll drown in it before the night is out.
I would love nothing more than to go to sleep and become one those stars in a summer sky just watching over the young lovers as they walk alone in the dark, watching over the little children who have been dealt the same hand I was, to watch over my family and friends to make sure they get the life they truly deserve.
I have said time and time again that acceptance is the the key to everything you ever wanted, but sometimes our wounds still bleed even if the the cut was slashed a long time ago.
So I end end my poem with this; every action that you take has a ripple affect on the people around you. Even the people you have never met. Be careful how you choose your path because you may have child that one day that will write you a letter just like this.
