I'm sitting on a wooden stairwell
That is leading to nowhere in my life
All the lies that cause my broken heart
Is the end of all the strife.
The words "I love you" has been said a lot
People take for granted what those words truly mean
You then live life with abandonment issues
Which is why love is something I've never seen.
I should already be used to all the pain
But I'm still sad all day and wanting to pace.
I cry all night for hours
In the mirror black tears from mascara run down my face.
I wake up each morning
With hopes of a new day
But by the end of the night
I end up crying with nothing to say.
I've been left, lost, and abandoned in life
People that give out fake sympathy turn and laugh behind my back
They always say things will get better
But it's hard to believe when my days are so cold and black.
But my life is changing all the sudden
I'm with people who give me confidence and love
When I feel like I'm living in hell
They make me feel like an angel from above.
I've now left everything behind me
the drama, the bullshit, the issues, and the pain
I've finally found my new day
I'm starting new and nothing will ever be the same.
I have my new family and all my old friends
And I found a new man
He's funny great with kids but stupid
Will he ever understand?
I'm a loving mother of two
I just want a man to be there
I think he's the perfect man but I can't say anything
So I'm back sitting at the stairwell.
