Late nights
Angry fights
Memories coming at me with all its might
Crying on the inside
Pain release on the out
I once had everything
Now im struggling with everything
Memories are my life
His mean face
Big hands comeing at me
His body holding me intill i cant move
Me struggling to breath
The knife goes to my throat
I feel the cold blade against my skin
I close my eyes and ask god to help me
I look around i have no one
He told me i was bad
I was just another one of his mistakes
I love him so much
He doesnt want me
How do i stop careing?
Theres just to much i went through
Y did i fight to stay alive
When i want so bad just to die
So i dont need to relive all the painfull memories everyday
I get these flashbacks again and again
Im shutting people out
I just cant deal
Alot is going on in my life now
Mix it with the awful memories of my past
I need a quick out
I cant handle all of this
Im doing things i shouldnt
I cant stop
Im just so hurt on the inside and out
I cant rember anything but bad
Look at my life know
A million broking peices
I need alot of help
Day by day its getting harder
