Every Night

Every night i lay motionless
Thinking of what to do
Thinking about my heart
And how much more it can go through

I process all the days events
As i toss and move around
Knowing that whats done is done
And i cant make a sound

My laughs and smiles pale in comparison
To all the frowns and sighs
But part of me cant help it
I just cant say goodbye

So i take everything
Dying a little each day
Hoping tomorrow's different
And my fear will melt away

And so i write this
Not knowing what you'll do
And knowing im hurting myself
I still say i love you </3