I saw that you cared for me
One of the only people that do at the moment
You got the courage to face your fear
I felt great so I agreed
As the night went on, thoughts stormed through my mind
Feelings of both regret and happiness raged on
I was unsure of what to do with myself
To keep you or keep life
The next day I stayed hidden from you and the world
Unsure of how to react to what had happened
You try to comfort me like a good friend
But you were the reason for my sudden attitude change
To tell you the truth I was not ready for "us"
You and me both were not ready
So you understand why I had to do this
Save our connection for the future
Now that we are done, I have realized
I ruined your first relationship with my insecurities
I also ruined our friendship
Now, we aren't the same we were before
I just want to tell you that I am sorry for every ounce of pain I caused you. You really are the one, you just aren't the present, you are my past and future. I honestly love you and I hope we will be "us" again.
Meaghan
