All I am

Sitting here looking out into the dark sky , yet it feels like Im looking out onto my life , because here , what is in front of me, is all that is me .

Often I feel as though I need something more , the people I need most , I want them here or I want to be there , wherever they are .

But though I write this I know each and every other day I sit at this stool, Ill think the exact same , never taking action, always sitting and waiting.

Why cant they see the anger and the sadness in my eyes , the longing to be someone so far from me , yet they see my smile as genuine and they see my tears as water .

Because everyone elses worlds are so much more far away from mine , there thinking is miles away and there love will never want to be anywhere near mine.

Though I try to impress everyone and make everything so perfect, there are times when I just want to scream the most horriblest of words out and not have anyone judge me.

Right now as I write this poem , I am aware none of it rhymes , none of it may mean any sense to anyone who is reading, yet I feel it , and I cry while I write it , because it me , its all i am , words.